Be With You by Candy J. Starr

Author:Candy J. Starr [Starr, Candy J]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2015-06-18T16:00:00+00:00

CHAPTER FIFTEEN - TEX

I walked through the airport feeling like a sack of shit. My head ached like a bastard and my sunglasses did nothing to take the edge off the glare. I did the rock star thing, striding down the concourse, letting the paparazzi take their photos while fans screamed and yelled. I gave some of the girls a wave and they screamed even louder. Then I headed to the lounge for a quiet drink. That would be the best way to deal with this. A few drinks before getting on the plane, then I'd pass out and the pain might stop for a little while.

If only I could call Ruby and hear her voice, I'd feel better but I'd screwed things up with her again. She was a complicated woman and I was a simple man. She was so far above me, it hurt my neck just to look at her.

That night was meant to be a special night. The kind of night we'd remember for years to come. Then I'd lost it. I said stupid shit. What I'd hoped, but didn't want to admit, was that she'd been suffering so much on her own, without me, that she'd be desperate to come running back. That she'd become as much of a wreck as I had.

Then I saw her.

She'd changed. She was gorgeous. More gorgeous than she'd ever been. She glowed and had a fire in her eyes that I'd not seen there before. The way she walked, the way she talked, even the way she'd done her hair had changed. It was like a punch in the guts to realise she was becoming a woman who didn't need me.

Then, during dinner, I wanted to drink. I needed a drink, craved it, but she wasn't drinking. Was she judging me? I knew she couldn't drink on her medication but I'd forgotten then I felt stupid for saying anything. The more I talked, the more shit I got myself into until there was no way to back out.

For one brief moment, I could see her love for me shining in her eyes. Even while she looked at me like that, part of me was wondering how long until I got my next drink.

I got stupid and that light dimmed. I could write a million love songs but I couldn't find the simple words I needed. The booze loosened my tongue but that was no use when the words that slipped out were the words of a fool.

Ruby, the only woman I'd ever loved, was slipping away from me and, instead of being able to keep her, I just drove her further away. I could stand outside myself, watching and cursing at what a dick I was but could do nothing to stop it. I couldn't force her to stay with me. She was brilliant, far too talented to work as my housekeeper. But a man has his pride, and I had more than most men.

Then I'd stormed off to the bar and left her there alone.

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